ok. so school is like, two days away and i just recently found out who i'm gonna be stuck with in a room for the rest of the school year. And to my luck, i found out that my classmates included the person i dislike the most. actually two of them. I'm really not a person full of hate, but it's just frustrating to find out suddenly that the person who tried to totally backstab you (and still does, who knows) is the one you have to stick with maybe. I haven't got a lot of really close friends in my new section so let's be honest. I have a pretty bad feeling I'll be one of the quiet loner ones in class. God help me. I want to be comfortable and I'm really afraid that in school group works, I have no one to work with. ugh. Insecure much? Let's just hope that I'll have a good time in 3-6. junior year is scaryyyyy. pray for me. haha

This is just about how I feel about Paramore and their almost breaking up as band:) there's no reason to be mean ok?

i was having second thoughts to posting this one because of the comments I might get like , "don't care" or stuff like that,  but i did. so there.(you don't have to read it if you think it's pathetic. haha. I find it pathetic myself. I dunno.)

   

    When I read about the band’s internal issues and how Hayley recounted what it felt like the band being apart and all, I was like totally sad. Then when I read about them finally being Paramore/friends (literally!) once again, I don’t know. It’s like I just read some tear jerking story about friendship. I got teary-eyed. Man I’m such a drama queen! I was touched how they went from super successful to almost breaking up as a band to being back for real. “And once that was done, it was back to the old us and back to the old reasons why we started a band and why we wanted to play music together.”-Hayley Williams. Yes, back to the old reasons why they wanted to play music together. Now, that’s the Paramore I want to see onstage. It’s hard thinking that some of those smiles Hayley had on stage before are actually efforts to look happy. When behind all of it, Paramore was having friendship problems and all. It’s a total relief that the new record brought them back together back to being real friends. When I first heard Paramore, I didn’t know they were called that. So I didn’t give much attention. Then I saw Misery Business. I thought, “what a song! Cool video.” And still didn’t give them much attention but now I know at that time that they were called Paramore. Haha. Then After one year, I came across a video of them in youtube and my interest began to grow. The more I saw them in their videos like being crazy and all plus the live performances of them, I was totally awed. I was angry with myself because I was like, “why the heck didn’t I give attention to them before?!” I never WAS a fan of ANY bands before. I wasn’t into bands actually. Somehow, Paramore came and turned that around. I spent my day randomly singing one of their songs or checking out their livejournal. I was sad with the fact that I can’t possibly see them play live because i live in another country. I was totally drawn to their songs especially the lyrics. I just don’t think I’ll believe it if ever they broke up as a band.

 I never will.

 

 

PS. Wow, I usually don’t make essays like this (I’ll get a D for this one. haha)Maybe I’m just into my paramore-love mood today. haha.